|*19th Nov'06*|

My feet is breaking.. Lolx.. They hurt la.. like going to cramp soon.. Ohh well..

Nite Cycling was not too bad.. but I feel darn scared lahs.. coz its kinda dangerous.. and after hearing abt the casualties..plus my brakes isn't that good..=\ As in 1 is too sharp another is dunno wad la.. anyway everytime I brake it makes noise.. yea..=\ The previous nite cycling was safer.. coz there ain't much cars along the route..

Went to Work today.. didn't sit much coz I nvr thought of sitting at all.. coz I know my butt will hurt.. Lolz.. Anyway.. I think that my feet has some issues... lols.. I think I need arc support.. I'm not flat feet neither do I haf high arc.. its jus a normal feet but I guess my arc collapses when my shoe doesnt haf arc support..hmmmm....?

I need skirts..yea its kinda surprising to hear me say that.. but well.. since 1 of the 3 I haf jus got "spoiled'.. I really need to get some just so I don't haf to wear jeans all the time..=.= and yea I do need another pair of tight fitting jeans..=\ Needa get a pair of heels coz the 1 I've been wearing is 'spoiled' Anywayz.. the thing is.. I need to do some shopping yea..? If not I don't know what I can wear to my cousin's wedding or some occasion or when I go out la.. lols.. =.="

I'm kinda fustrated with myself.. sometimes I think back, I should be more relaxed la.. as in takes things easy loh.. instead of being gan jiong.. hmmm...I think there's some difference from previously which I'm getting worried....

Becca.. pls be a better person.. =\

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OHH!!! I'M SO TIRED!!!

I can't seem to find time to study and do my work properly.. There's always things that I need to rush to complete.. and I just don't have the energy left to do them.. It just makes me more Vex and irritated. ARGHS!!!!!

|* 12th Nov' 06*|

This is one of the reasons I say I hate my Life. People around you will just mistaken you for some attitude and start screaming at you. Fine! Say whatever you want about me I dont care arhhs.. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!!! How many of my days and nights are going to be spoiled because of this. Am I suppose to suffer all these crap every night or what? Don't I have enough problems to figure out? Scream at every lil' thing you are displeased, mistook my attitude for every lil face i show, words i say and my tone.. so wad? Every way of my communication is wrong la.. What's your problem.. I already don't want to reply just so I won't flare my temper and now you make me blow up when I'm trying to prevent it. And I'm petty for saying those things.. Every comment I make is displeased, so might as well I just SHUT UP.. Won't you be Happy then? So I dun haf my freedom to show my displeasure la.. Am I still considered Human den? Even Animals haf their Rights. Damn.. Sometimes I feel I'm cursed. Next time just leave me ALONE. damn.. I'm already 18 and you dunno when to leave me alone? and sense my temper rising? Are you kidding??? I hate pple digging out what had happen b4 and jus add it to the arguement, holding grudge? or nth to say already..

I slam my door jus coz I haf no mood also wrong. I can't get angry meh, cannot haf my unhappy days arhhs.. I angry you also must know arhh.. I have my choice to choose whether to say out or not. u CAN'T force me. I already slam the door so just leave me alone. Y throw urself at a raging lion? Just by doing u pick up a quarrel. And Now I haf Hoarse voice.. y.. coz u made me Shout! I was trying to prevent all these and u made it happen WTH?? Now I'm Super Pissed Off!!!

|*5th Nov' 06*|

I realise that there are MANY things for me to Think, Plan, Ponder and Reflect on. Both Big and Small. I think I've come to a point whereby I'm stunned by the questions and I just cannot answer them right away, which tells me that its time to sit down and THINK.

My brain was Constantly thinking while I made my way home, it's always like that but I just can't seem to remember them and type everything out.

What do I want to acheive in my next 6months? A question that sets me thinking. Its good that I got this question. Seriously. It made me Think and now I know/reminded me of what I'm aiming for, so that I will work hard to achieve them. Sometimes I just wonder why i can't question myself with these sort of questions, so that I won't be so lost along the way. I guess that's why we have friends. yea? I think its the way of God showing me my way.

Are my expectations of people that high? My expectations for myself can be, but I know my strength (I suppose?). Well, I do evaluate myself with that expectation. If I can acheive it why can't they? But I do see things on a case by case basis alright.

Then comes another question. Well, I really need time to think about it. Its like an answer which really might make an impact somehow. I know I'm not ready because I can't even think straight on it. Yea I did blurt that out but well yea..it is not wrong to say that its a fact or my deepest desire, but I know that the time has not come yet. Of course it'll be great to daa daa daa daa.. but I might jus encounter many road blocks if I try to make my way through. so yea. Be clear and Displine, no distractions/side tracking. Dang~~ its getting serious.

Lots Of Volunteery Efforts = LOVE
(from the parish Priest during today's Homily)